first day in labour ward, i almost cried when i saw the baby being delivered alive.
second day in labour ward, i almost cried again when i saw the baby being delivered dead (it was an intrauterine death at 26 weeks).

2 days of attachment in the labour ward has sort of made the picture in my head clearer, of where i want to head in at least the next 3 years. why should i be worried that my clinical skills won't be on par with the experienced midwifery trained staff in the labour ward? I'm sure they have put in a lot of hard work before they can get the respect from the doctors... the emotions that i have experienced these 2 days- the happiness of bringing a new life into the world, the support to be given to the mother in the most painful moment of her life, are the emotions that i want to experience everyday, definitely not entertaining some patients who think that they must get the most out of the service they paid for. and with the skills, i'm sure i can do more meaningful things outside of this little red dot...