因为美琪是用水做的.

it was quite a malu day ytd.

i've tried to hold back my tears, but it was the sentence 'u seemed depressed. i cant see the thing tt i see in u when u were in 55B' that started everything.

i guess those who saw me ytd must have thought tt Neela scolded me. but i was glad that she listened to me.

美琪应该学习坚强一点

:(

im really sick of my ward and preceptor already.

having a preceptor= having no preceptor

i thought today would be a better day as my preceptor's SGH preceptee was not here. bt i was wrong.

she does her work without explaining anything to me. if i didnt ask her to explain to me, i dont think she'll ever bother to do it.

she'll rather ask her junior to do something that i can do, even when im just standing next to her.

she'll rather ask her junior to do something that i dont know how to do, but can obviously be learnt, even when im standing in front of her.

if i dont talk to her, i dont think she'll bother to talk to me. i think she only talk to me when i make mistakes.

taking case= not taking case

all i did for the case that i took was to write and pass the report. she did all the calling, faxing, despatching herself without telling me.

other staff nurses bothered to explain a lot of things to me even when im not their preceptee, and even volunteered to print extra learning stuffs for me. i dont understand why my preceptor just seem so unwilling to teach me.

i dont want to have the mindset that i'll just be staying in this ward for another 1 week plus. i really want to learn as much as possible. sometimes i feel more sad when i rmb that im left with only 1.5 weeks.

i find it really difficult to learn things this way. it's very tiring too. i always tell myself that tomorrow will be a better day. i'll definitely learn more things tomorrow. but things still have not changed for the better.

it has been a really disappointing experience in ward 58. i thought i could learn a lot in this ward after hearing amy's and evon's experiences. i think i could have learnt much more if i stayed in 55B.

im still thinking whether i should ask her to let me take case tomorrow, since taking case= not taking case.

=(

thought my dentist would off braces for me ytd.


KTV anyone?!?!?!

even neela realised that i looked happier when i was in ward 55B. she's absolutely right.

anw, i seriously think old nurses should just spend their last few yrs of nursing career in polyclinics.

i was feeling very angry over the bloody ward CI on the journey home today.

what's worst, i got home seeing my stuffs (which shd be in the drawer) being placed on my desk, part of them on top of mr lappy and on the newly bought earphone.

i dont need to ask who did it.

heart of greed

another hk drama. but this one is really terrifc! it's really a MUST WATCH!

a typical plot but the way the tension builds up really made me wanna continue watching after each episode! but if u wanna watch, remember to continue watching even if you find the first few episodes boring (with the introduction of the characters, the abalone business all those stuff)!

the actors and actresses were great too! i think the most heartwrenching part was seeing how mummy and bao bao became ill with each episodes, and died eventually with their children by their side, and how they protected their children even though they knew they were dying. 真是催泪。and how the villains tried to break the family again and again (so irritating!) really made me so engrossed in the drama!

with each drama, there will always be some characters i love! i think dak dak dei (陈豪饰演) is my fave! great man! love this character!

so, go watch it! 40 episodes are actually just nice!

OT

hi, i've finally finished my OT posting! WOOHOO! (Congrats to jia-si-ka for completing her 9 DAYS marathon!) :


OT posting was generally okay. My preceptor's great and she has pretty eyes too. haha. anw, the sister who took us was great too! she was actually one of the NUS masters students! haha! it's kinda funny that we can actually complain about pharmaco together, discuss about pharmaco lecturers (Benny Tan and Bian Jin Song!), recall how scary it was mugging for pharmaco, and of course the practical sessions with the mice! haha! and she was also one of those masters students who taped down all the pharmaco lectures! LOL! anw, she's really the BEST sister i've encountered. oh ya she knows about IVLE and sciencedirect too. so there's really lots of things to talk about (our debrief session lasted for nearly 2 hrs today) :


anw, i still think i wont specialize in OT.

oh ya, some OT staffs and some advanced dip students are really weird. 又不是来跟你抢饭碗，干嘛说话那么不客气。boo!

my sgh partner PEISHAN and ME (in oversized OT attire!) :

oh ya peishan saw a c section today!! so lucky!

oh hoho! finally a full wkn off for me! YAY!

back to wards next wk! yay!

i dont think i will be an OT nurse in the future:

1. im quite deaf, so i cant really hear what the ppl are talking when they're wearing masks
2. i dont really like wearing mask all day
3. OT is bloody cold (or bloody, and cold)
4. it is quite boring (be it scrub nurse or circulating nurse)

maybe the only good thing is i can wear the shower cap to hide all my baby hair!

Happy Bdae to the May babies!

HAPPY 21st QINGYUN! (bdae on 05 may. celebrated on 09 may) :
venue: Aloha Loyang Garden Bungalow 3
THEME: 宅男宅女. suits me.:D

HAHA! we're all v 配合 with the theme. 什么形象都没了。

i find this photo super funny! 方大同 lookalikes.


Happy 21st YANLING! (bdae on 29 may. celebrated on 18 may):
Venue: Teo Heng KTV



let me guess what they were singing. "是我想太多 你总这样说..."

oh ok teo heng didnt provide 3 mics. meiyin brought her own mic! LOL:

the 成名曲:


HAPPY 21st VON! (bdae on 28 may. celebrated on 01 Jun)
Venue: Melt - The World Cafe
Mandarin Oriental Singapore

the pretty + very glam birthday girl!:


This photo was taken at the right timing. im seemed to be the least yauqwee among them:

the birthday girl was hungry after entertaining the guests:

i thought i would be doing an injustice to the food if i didnt blog them down:







i actually missed out this! ARGH!:

i was quite reluctant to leave the party earlier. but i know angela zhang is waiting for me at expo hall 5. haha. anyway, i would want to go back and dine if there's a chance. :)

will update on angela's concert another time !:)

***
i have come to the end of my 4 weeks posting in ward 55B! this posting has made me consider specializing in urology. and i kind of regretted to have bonded with KKH. hmm.

anyway i wanna bitch about this blur HO in my ward. he ordered 50mg oral maxalon PRN for my patient today!　normal dose is 10 mg. shit can. 想害死我. HENG i ask my preceptor to check!

next up: OT!

***

HBP POSTER!:

百分百- 郭靜

[作詞：姚若龍 作曲：李聰]

牽著手買的白色的T-shirt
像約定什麼都要一起了
情人節唱歌跨年看煙火 都黏著

第一次為你慶生還記得
你微笑 把燭光 吹滅了
你許的願望讓我落淚了
每個祈禱都為我

*喜歡 靠在你胸口
就像躺在棉花田那麼暖和
你的耳語彷彿風和雲朵帶我飄向天空
你的愛 讓我想 作更多的夢
因為有你 讓夢想都結成蘋果

喜歡 你握著我手
就像合吃棉花糖那麼快樂
你的呵護讓我像個孩子無拘無束的瘋
真的愛 不用偽裝 不用強求
很輕鬆就會懂 愛的人看著我 想什麼*

第一次為你慶生還記得
你微笑 把燭光 吹滅了
你許的願望讓我落淚了
每個祈禱都為我

REPEAT *
Ho~ Wo~
很輕鬆就會懂 愛的人看著我 想什麼

你说过牵了手就算约定 但亲爱的那并不是爱情

now that the 期待已久的 1st June has passed, what else can i look forward to?