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im really sick of my ward and preceptor already.

having a preceptor= having no preceptor

i thought today would be a better day as my preceptor's SGH preceptee was not here. bt i was wrong.

she does her work without explaining anything to me. if i didnt ask her to explain to me, i dont think she'll ever bother to do it.

she'll rather ask her junior to do something that i can do, even when im just standing next to her.

she'll rather ask her junior to do something that i dont know how to do, but can obviously be learnt, even when im standing in front of her.

if i dont talk to her, i dont think she'll bother to talk to me. i think she only talk to me when i make mistakes.

taking case= not taking case

all i did for the case that i took was to write and pass the report. she did all the calling, faxing, despatching herself without telling me.

other staff nurses bothered to explain a lot of things to me even when im not their preceptee, and even volunteered to print extra learning stuffs for me. i dont understand why my preceptor just seem so unwilling to teach me.

i dont want to have the mindset that i'll just be staying in this ward for another 1 week plus. i really want to learn as much as possible. sometimes i feel more sad when i rmb that im left with only 1.5 weeks.

i find it really difficult to learn things this way. it's very tiring too. i always tell myself that tomorrow will be a better day. i'll definitely learn more things tomorrow. but things still have not changed for the better.

it has been a really disappointing experience in ward 58. i thought i could learn a lot in this ward after hearing amy's and evon's experiences. i think i could have learnt much more if i stayed in 55B.

im still thinking whether i should ask her to let me take case tomorrow, since taking case= not taking case.